Board Thread:Ships/@comment-5088656-20150331095832

A/N: I know Alice isn't active anymore but I feel like this needed to be done, ya know? This is in a form of a letter and credits to Adelle for editing this because my grammar is awful and for being a lovely person in general.

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I just finished a book today entitled Love Letters to the Dead and it gave me the idea to write this.

I can't sing or draw to save my life, but I can write. So I'll write to you instead. But don't get any ideas; this isn't a love letter.

Let's talk about your personality, shall we? You are ignorant, reckless, irresponsible, carless, and unpredictable. You make ill-judged decisions which end up with you resorting to violence. I am so fed up with your shitty attitude that I just want to scream. I have no idea what goes on in that pretty little mind of yours. It's so deep and complex, like a labyrinth. What did I see in you? What the fuck is it with you?

You are so lovely and awful and complicated all at the same time, it drives me crazy.

You drive me crazy.

In fact, I had planned to say these terrible things to you, but in the end, I just wanted to tell you that I missed you. I still do.

I miss you and your beautiful smile that rarely appears and when it does it's so lovely and that wonderful laugh you had but mostly, I just miss how you made me feel pretty even though we both know I wasn't. I miss all the feelings you gave me.

Sometimes I wonder how different my life would be if I said all the things I wanted to say. If I did all the things I wanted to do. Maybe you'd still be alive. Maybe I wouldn't have to stay up until five in the morning just to write you this letter.

Time isn't stopping for anyone, Riley. It's not going to stop for me and it's definitely not going to stop for you. The sun will rise soon and another day will pass by. I'm still here and you're not.

You don't realize this, but it's almost six o'clock, and I can't stop crying.

Maybe this is all we have going for us and maybe this is just how we're supposed to be. You and I, were probably never meant to be but I want you to know that I loved every single second that I spent with you.

Who knows, maybe in an alternate universe we get to restart our story.

This isn't a goodbye, because I'll see you whenever I wake up. I'll see you in the pictures, and everything beautiful will remind of you. How someone or something so beautiful, there is always darkness hidden inside them and that's what also makes them even more beautiful.

So this isn't a goodbye, but a see you later.

Rest in peace, Riley Kane.

I love you.

Alice  