Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-4531825-20140326045802

ooc; story timeeee. since there isn't any other OCs involved, I just made it a narrative. disclaimer: I hate the way I write narratives, so pardon the fact that it may look stupid. read it anyways.

She's gone.

I checked everywhere for her. She's nowhere to be found. She hasn't been in school since January, none of her friends have seen her, and her aunt told me today that she's not around here anymore.

It's not fair.

I've lost everything in my life. My parents, the only family I loved, my sanity, and now I lost the one girl who made all of that worth tolerating.

I've been thinking of killing myself for a long time now. But, when she came along, she made me want to stick around, even if it was just for a little while.

She was the light in my dark and shitty life.

But now she isn't here to give me that tiny piece of sanity and security. I was alone. Truly and utterly alone. There's no one here to save me from myself.

So, that's why I did it. No, I didn't cut myself or overdose on pills or something like the other emo bitches on TV. I wanted to make my last night fun for me, even though I knew the end result beforehand.

So, I got drunk. I stole it all from Uncle Steve's liquor cabinet. I drank my body weight in strong, bitter alcohol that I knew my body couldn't handle. My mind was hazy, my vision was fucked up, and I could barely stand without having gravity attempt to pull me back down. This is how I wanted it to be.

So, I told my uncle I was borrowing his car and I'll be back, when I knew that that was a lie. Next time he sees me, I'll be crushed in a trash heap somewhere along with the rest of his car. Oh well, he'll get over it. He never really cared anyways.

I got in, and didn't bother to strap myself up. No need for safety when I know that I don't want to be safe. I drove around on the highway when I started getting pretty tired. The alcohol was starting to take its toll.

My body started to shut down against my will, and I was barely conscious as it is when the car jerked sideways and ran into a tree on the side of the road at full speed.

My vision was already hazy, but I could see glass and red liquid everywhere. I think it was my blood. I could see hear sirens coming from afar. I wasn't paying attention to all of that, though. I was listening to the sounds of her voice inside my head, making my last waking moments worth it.

At that moment, I realized that I might have loved Alice.

I love you, Alice Chang.

And with that, I closed my eyes and everything went to black.

-fin- 