Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-4199666-20140415043521

“Hey Cody,” Nora sighed as she placed the flowers down on his grave. She couldn’t remember if he’d had a favourite type of flower, but she remembered him buying them for Amber once, and figured that some incarnation of Cody would have enjoyed the sentiment behind them. She let out a faint smile as she sat down cross-legged in front of his headstone, “it’s me again.” At first she had felt stupid talking to his grave as though he could hear her, but as she looked around previous times she realised that a lot of people found it easier to talk like that.

“I haven’t really heard from Amber since she went to live with her brother on tour. I don’t know if she’s really dealing with this all too well,” Nora paused, trying to distract herself from the thought of Amber and the last time she’d seen Amber, crying and trying to be strong for the both of them. Amber definitely wasn’t dealing with it well, but she wasn’t taking off her cannula at times, contemplating joining him in the ground. “Also, I saw Jen the other day. She misses you too.” Nora smiles yet again, clasping at the necklace she’d received from Jen. She didn’t tell Jen it was the first piece of jewellery she’d received since running away from home. “We all miss you, actually. Even Cait, but she didn’t know you that well. Oh, and Cait’s actually having a baby too. Wait, I told you about that already. Well, Phegan’s the father, but he’s in jail now, which is another story, but it’s probably for the best that he’s there. He didn’t want to be involved in the baby’s life anyway.”

“You know,” Nora began, trying to lighten the mood, “conversations usually work better with two people.” She let out a heavy sigh, trying to compose herself. Something about what she said stung in her chest, and she could feel the tears watering up in her eyes as she thought about what she was going to say. “Also, it was my birthday the other day. Well, actually, it was a while ago. I don’t really like birthdays, you know? They remind me of all the times with my parents.” She pauses after her voice cracks and a tear starts to make it way down her cheek. She wipes it away with her sleeve. “But also it just reminded me how you weren’t there to celebrate it too.”

She looks up towards the clouds in what was an otherwise perfectly sunny day. She tries to focus on the rhythm of her breathing to calm herself down, before she speaks, her voice barely more than a whisper. “I’m sorry, Cody. I just miss you. I love you, too.” As she speaks, volume starts to return to her voice. “And I know last time I said I was pissed off that you left me like this, but I’m not anymore. I don’t think I really ever was. I was just sick of feeling bad all the time. And now, I’m going to see my grandma with Cait. Um… it’s a funny story, actually, because she thought that Mel was my boyfriend and she wanted to meet him,” she said, putting the word him in air quotes.

“Oh, and I got over Mel, sort of. I don’t really know. Well, she moved on, but I don’t really see her much anymore, so I don’t think I can really still have feelings for her. I don’t want to date her again, so that’s something, I just miss having her around all the time. Sort of like how I miss you.” Nora starts to stand up, using her oxygen tank handle as a support. “Anyway, for all those times that I lied and told Blue and Juliette and Cait that I had a doctor’s appointment, it turns out I actually do have one today, so this visit is shorter than usual.” She takes a moment to brush the dirt and leaves off of her skirt, then smiles at the tombstone, with the lilies sitting perfectly centred. “I’ll see you later, Cody.”

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