Board Thread:Ships/@comment-31628060-20150208091439

Hey guys so idk if you know what a song fic is but they used to be popular back in the day

btw i wrote this at 2 am and its sucky but i made the fanart thing earlier and idk

i'll probs edit this later and make it decent

oh and the songs called Everything by Alanis Morissette

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I can be an asshole of the grandest kind

Eileen was never one to like people, she just didn't. Since she was a little girl all she ever heard of them was how she should be more like her sister. They didn't accept her for who she was, so she decided that sometimes you are better off alone. This has brought her much dislike from people but she doesn't care.

I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyone who is as negative as I am 

She learned the hard way that being positive meant having her dreams and hope crushes. Having a positive attitude just isn't a choice for her. The worst possible outcome always come to her mind, she puts herself up for failure. She is so used to being sad that the sole emotion of happiness has been forgotten.

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking 

She found it easy to blame all her problems and issues to her parents. They never cared for her and they were to blame for her rebellion. In all honestly she was responsible for her own actions, from shoplifting to almost buying drugs from a complete stranger.

My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating" Sometimes when she is having a bad day, she will reply Lydia with a sarcastic little remark. She isn't having any of this, she is fast to send one back and ready to listen to her when she has calmed down.

I'm terrified and mistrusting

Shai, who she considers her best friend, doesn't know half of the things she has told Lydia. She never thought she will be able to trust someone like this.

What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

When she was at her worst, she found herself texting the one person she knew would not judge her no matter how much of a screw up she was. Eileen had found trust in a person she hadn't even met.

You see everything, you see every part 

It was surprising how Lydia could tell if she was hyper, sad, or angry. She read her with one simple text. How can someone who can't even see your expression understand your emotions? She'll never know. Lydia didn't need to see her face to know what was going on she learned to feel Eileen, her happiness could reach her and she felt overwhelmed with joy but the same went with sadness. Cliche as it could be Lydia could truly feel what her texting friend felt. She made it her mission to make her happy.

 You see all my light and you love my dark

Eileen found herself texting Lydia her life story one night. It had never crossed her mind before but she was the first person who knew. She had accidentally given Lydia an access to something she kept hidden very well. Worry was her first reaction but afterwords, when she got a similar long text, she discovered the feeling of someone truly trusting her.

 You dig everything of which I'm ashamed

Model like beauty, Eileen heard this all the time. People's breath was taken away whenever they saw her. This all was superficial and it never made Eileen feel accomplished. She didn't like herself or how she looked. Loosing weight was much needed and some sort of make over. To say she was never content with her results are an understatement. Then this person who hadn't psychically see her came and told her that she was beautiful. How can a person tell this by some texts? The true definition of beauty changed for her ever since.

 There's not anything to which you can't relate

Lydia had told her about her life, how she didn't had any problems when she came out. How everyone in her family supported her. How she was never ashamed of being herself. Eileen was jealous at first, then confused. She thought Lydia and her had a connection. she thought she knew what she was going through. Having someone you can relate to can be a great life experience but having someone who hasn't and still wants to hear every single thing and understands you? That's winning the lottery.

 And you're still here

Eileen thought the texts were going to slowly die down. They would of ran out of things to say. Gotten bored of each other. That was not the case. Day after day she felt the need to talk to her. to ask how she was, to receive a picture of an animal she didn't even knew she liked. Lydia gave her something to look forward to. She was finally able to show her drawings to someone. Eileen thought she will run away once she found out how complicated she was. But she stayed despite all. She would be lying if she said she hadn't developed some kind of feelings for her but what are the chances they can end up together? Probably not many. But destiny has a funny way of working. What are the chances you receive a text message from a stranger that can change your whole life? 