Board Thread:Ships/@comment-4199666-20141201075548

A/N: Merry Christmas Cece. He hadn't been feeling the same for a long time. It's not that he didn't know what it was, but he'd try to push the thought out of his mind. 'You have a girlfriend,' he reminded himself. Somehow still, he couldn't shake the feeling of loneliness that came from missing him. Travis hadn't been around for almost half a year, and things were definitely not the same. It was quieter and he couldn't help but wish that he could hear Travis's voice fill the room again.

As he sat on his couch, drinking a beer and staring at the TV without taking in anything it was saying, he heard a knock on the door. His brow furrowed, slightly confused. It was freezing outside, and no one else was supposed to be coming home that night. His girlfriend was staying with her parents to celebrate the holidays and his other roommate, Sam, had decided to spend the night with one of her other friends. Still, Kieran got up out of his seat, warily walking over to the door, unsure of who or what to expect there. As he put his hand on the handle, he felt himself shake a little bit. Maybe he should've picked up something to defend himself with, in case the visitor was dangerous, but by this point he was already too anxious to see who it was, and there he was, covered in snowflakes and looking visibly shaken. "Travis?" Kieran asked, not sure if he could believe his own eyes. They'd lied to him a few times before. Travis nodded slightly, extending out a hand for a handshake to break the tension. Kieran, suddenly overwhelmed with the repressed feelings shot straight in for a hug. He pulled Travis in close, ignoring the sudden drop in temperature between his heated house and outside. It had been too long since he'd felt that embrace, and it felt like it had been even longer that he'd been anticipating it. Travis smiled, happy to be greeted with such a warm reception. The whole plane ride back, he'd been antsing about uneasily. He couldn't help but worry that things would have changed while he was gone. "Where is everyone?" Travis asked as he walked in, closing the door behind him and finally feeling the full warmth of his home as the heated air danced across his skin. "Well, that was a bad question. I didn't even ask how you were doing."

Kieran looked down, staring at his toes and trying to think of how to word the thoughts in his head. He so badly wanted to tell Travis how much he'd been missing him these past few months, and how he'd contemplated flying out to visit him, but none of the words would find their way to his mouth. He couldn't say that. He had a girlfriend. He had to remain faithful. And he did love his girlfriend, very much, but he didn't know how long it would be until he saw Travis next. He couldn't bear the thought of waiting another six months. Finally, Kieran pooled up the courage, and he pulled Travis in for a kiss. Travis was taken aback, still not sure what this meant for the two of them. The last thing he'd heard, Kieran still had a girlfriend, and he was dedicated to her, but for some reason he couldn't make himself pull away. He wanted to kiss Kieran as much as Kieran had wanted to kiss him, and so they remained there in each other's embrace until they could finally find the words to explain how they'd felt. 